Managing My Peace During Turbulent Times

THAT moment when you realize you are laying on the floor and looking at the ceiling!  

THAT moment when you find yourself always tired!  

THAT moment when you find yourself breaking into random tears!  

THAT moment when you just can’t feel!

THAT moment happen to me at the end of March. 

I’m not sure if anyone else can relate.  I had started 2020 with big goals and vision.  YES!!!  I was going to conquer each plan.  I JUST knew this year was going to be the BEST year of my life.  It was going to be EPIC!!!

March 2020 left me on the floor having a complete breakdown.  I didn’t lose faith.  I just lost who I thought I was going to be.  I’m not sure which is worse.  For years, I’ve experienced some sense of pride in my identity.  Attached would be an understatement.  COVID19 shattered every idea of comfort within a 14 day period.

They say growth doesn’t happen in your comfort zone.  Well, I loved that quote until around March 27th, 2020.  LOL.  It legit took about 4 weeks of mourning my comfort and identity.  Does that make sense?  I thought I was one to adjust to changes.  It hit me that I’m not 100% comfortable with it.

Fast forward a few weeks, I found myself waking up on time and finding a new peace in a clean slate.  I had an opportunity to start fresh.  Now what?  Certain truths hit me:

LuxeGiving Wasn’t Diverse

For eight years, we have done different things all from a face to face perspective.  Essentially, we were forced to operate on one leg of income dissected in different ways.  Wise business owners diverse their income streams.  In situations where face to face is not an option, we could’ve still brought in income.

Steered Away From My Passion

Compassion and philanthropy work was jam. It fueled my passion for being an entrepreneur.  I had vowed that I wanted to do things that made me happy and make money doing it.  Also, I wanted to do things that make a difference.  Somewhere along the way, I stopped focusing on leaving the world in a better place.  You often hear about understanding our why.  My why has been clear yet I took my eyes off the front road.

Stop Playing Small

I had prided myself on being a behind the scenes brand.  I would say “I rather be rich than look like it and not be.”  That motto left me aiming low to avoid attention.  There’s a difference between flash, esteem, pride and showboating.  I had the power decide how to show up powerfully for my team, business, and brand.  Instead of not talking about LuxeGiving and being an entrepreneur, I was able to find my footing to represent my brand.  We can all at times suffer from limitations that block us daily from our God-given gifts.  Not anymore!

In the messy parts, I was able to find a new identity built on truths and no longer on a false identity.  My peace has been found in trusting God’s push outside my comfort zone.  I’ve let go of my plans for playing small.  Just because the plans change, it doesn’t mean that our success won’t happen.  Pick up the pieces and push forward.

“The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.”

― Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture

Did you find yourself struggling with identity during COVID19?  If so, how did you overcome those challenges?

image shot at Ara Ha